If I could say...

Seriously when one stays in a hostel with roughly 5/6 housemates, please show respect to the other person!
Respect does not just means speaking nicely or treating the other person well.

I believe one deserves a full respect from others in terms of how you accomodate with others and learn not to be selfish.
There were many situations where I find it so irritating and my anger is boiling in me but i chose to just clean up the mess that they made and forgive.

Examples:
1. Today, when i went to toilet and to my shock i found a tissue soaked with urine partially on the toilet seat and about to drop into the toilet bowl.
My opinion: It's really disgusting to whoever did that and I find it not hygienic not just for the next person who will use it but for that person as well.

2. The toilet is so small and please leave some space for others to put their things.
Don't place all your toiletries on the sink and where there is space as if it's your home.
Be sensitive to how others will feel.

3. Kitchen- After cooking please wipe the place clean and wash up your dishes.
Please don't leave them for days or even weeks.
Just imagine the smell and those leftover droplets will attract foreign visitors into the apartment.

Please learn how to be considerate and understanding to others.
With bad habits that you develop in life, it will not only be expressed in your actions but it also determines your character.
When you have a future life partner and that person sees your bad habits and they can't stand it, how will a family live in harmony?

Nuff said

Everything feels like it's falling apart.

Some lecturers just give you a hard time by not offering the help they should.

We are just in our 1st year, 1st semester and there's so much that we have gone through.

How to survive till the 3rd year?

Feel so stressed when i got back my assignment marks today.

Lord, help me through.

I feel so helpless right now. 

Being back home for just a short weekend was refreshing!

I feel so glad being just with the people I am familiar, the comfort of my bed, the familiar sounds and roads.

The love of my family being showered upon me through prayers, comfort, smiles and actions.

It just makes me feel so much joy.

Not forgetting home cook food!

The joy of not having to decide what to eat the next meal and don't need to worry about cleanliness of the stalls or how expensive the food will be.

It's the start of a new week.

Feeling pumped up and ready for challenges!

Bring it on fourth week being in university!

Updates!

Hi everyone!

Yes, i have not been updating for more than a month.

Been working for 5 months plus.

Ending my period of internship at the end of this month.

Looking back when i started in September, I had slight regrets in the beginning because there was not much work to look forward too.

The opportunity to experience and learn new things was slim when i was in the first few weeks.

But i prayed to God for the chance to learn and also to use the accounting software.

God answered my prayers! (Amen to that)

I have learned to use the cheque typing machine, issuing cheques (get to be a 'boss' for once!), writing payment vouchers, typing with microsoft power point and excel, photostat documents, scanning, faxing, filling in courier forms, translating brochures from english to chinese.

But, the work load is not consistent.

Sometimes the week seems so long because there is so much work or towards the other end when there is nothing much to do.

To fill up my free time, i end up reading news.

Yes, news.

So many websites i have read: BBC, CNN, The Star, Channel News Asia, Bangkok Post and some i may have forgotten.

Other than that, learning how to deal with different people is also something BIG that i experience.

Have to learn how to take scoldings, negative respond with patience and a smile.

It's hard really, i struggled deep in my heart.

Thankfully God reminded me once again of the Song Hosanna.

' Show me how to love like You have loved me'

Besides, I have seen the tension between different races happening.

For me I just stay neutral.

I try to mix around with different races.

Probably it's because i was in a multi-racial school and mixing around with malays and indians is not a problem for me.

Through it all, this is only the beginning.

When i become a full time employee of a company/ small firm, there will be more issues to deal with and my patience will be tested even more.

When things don't turn out the way it should be, keep your eyes focus on the cross and know that the Holy Spirit will give you wisdom and guide you in the right path.

Today I decided to follow my dad to Teluk Intan Wesley for conducting Holy Communion and also to preach there.
I did not expect this, but i got to know more people who are in the working world.
They shared their view point on the economy and also the Euro Crisis that is happening recently.

Sometimes newspaper is influenced by a lot of factors, one of it is the Government trying to regain confidence of investors both foreign and local, and also the people who are contributing through taxes.

Not only that, i got to know a new friend who did ACCA!
I can ask her more questions of being an accounting student and how to 'survive' being one!
It's not easy for the course i am pursuing, but i am glad she encouraged me that it opens more job opportunities for me and more choices to go for!

I did not expect that i will know more people.
Even told my dad last night, i was partially reluctant to go.
But you know what, NO REGRETS!

Got to know more about the Oil Industry and we must really be prepared for any economic crisis that will happen in our country.
Malaysia will somehow or rather be affected by this crisis.
Stop listening to sweet words being spread through the media.
It's not that simple.
Even China, one of the developing and Big economy in the world is affected.
What about Malaysia?

This is the time we as Christians need to ask God for His guidance and wisdom.
Don't forget to give your tithes to God too!
He has blessed you with so much, why can't you spare just 10% of your income to Him?

Another important lesson i learned while gaining this working experience is to be very careful with people who will only be your friend when they need something from you.

I have experienced it myself when they need something they will be extra nice to me and also to have a conversation.
But when they don't, the rest of the days will be a silent gesture and my presence is ignored.

I really admire the malay colleagues in my office, because they have freedom to talk with each other without expecting something in return and also to enjoy and laugh with each other.
Whereas with some people, i feel so tensed whenever i am with them.
I feel the gap and the distance.
I have tried to be their friend, but when people are not open to you, they are just treating you as invisible.

Without God's love, my response will be so different from now.
It will be how the world will response and this is how war happens.

Christmas 2011

Christmas tree in Mid Valley, captured with a professional camera.

2011 is a year where many electronic appliances broke down.
For example my dad's camera.
So, he decided to get a dslr- Canon 660D!
To date, i have been capturing more than him which is a surprise because usually he captures more than me.

There are more functions in a dslr to play with especially the lightings!
Hopefully it will serve us well!

I think one of the most scariest dream ever is dreaming about my colleagues.
Not that they are scary but the dream goes like this.
I was working in the office like any other day and i was unhappy with my boss.
So i told one of my colleagues how i felt.
But she ended up reporting to my boss so my boss was very angry with me and he intend to take revenge!

I woke up this morning, being so terrified and scared that i prayed i will not make any major, huge mistakes when i am working.
If not my dream may come true.
p/s : My boss is a nice person and i know he won't be scary as my dream is. =)

1 more week till i get my next salary.
It gets me excited when i know i will get my hard earn money, although most of the time at work i barely do much.
At least this keeps me going and continue to work even in the future!
=)

So many things are running in my mind.
I mean half of me wants to stay here, but half of me says staying at another place may be a good experience for me.

Many people said that even if my parents stay or go to another church, it won't affect me.
Who says it won't?
Seriously, i am part of the family and i may not be directly affected but definitely indirectly!

For my perspective, we've been here for 11 years, going on 12 i guess.
Some how or another one day we have to move away from this little town to another place where God will call us.
Since this year i am more free while waiting for uni, i have the time to pack and clear the house, but what about the next year, and the year after?

I appreciate the prayers from members who care for us and pray that we will stay.
But no offense, if you are letting God's will be done, we should be praying Lord let Your will be done in this family wherever You call them to be.
I feel like there's a string tied to me and my family to stay back.
Or maybe i am the only one who feels that.

In so much confusion and doubts now.

Sitiawan has been a place filled with wonderful memories, no doubt about that.
But sometimes i just need an adventure with my family, at a different place.

The most amazing thing in life is when God brings in wonderful people to impact You and who believes in You no matter what.

Watching X-Factor reminded me to appreciate my love ones more.

Those who impact and leave a footprint in our lives are blessings from above!

Thank you God! You are AWESOME!

Thank you God for speaking to me through a hymn today.

'Trust and Obey, for there is no other way
To be happy in Jesus, But to trust and obey'

It's amazing how God has reminded me again and again that He is always there for me no matter what happens and no matter where i go.

Truly Lord, You will provide for all my needs and will indeed give me surprises when i least expect it.
I know You will!
=)

My dad has a brilliant idea,
He told me if you are studying outstation and do not have a tv to watch, just tell me i will call you through skype and you can watch it!
Brilliant!!!!

This coming week, no work on Monday and Saturday!!!!!!!!!
Really looking forward to holidays!

Good time to rest, clear some stuff and enjoy waking up late!

He he

Maxis, why thou art charge me extra fees?
I have cancelled you for about a month and not used you.
But you treated me this way =(

The reality of living in this world sometimes makes me happy, sometimes it just drives me nuts.
Dealing with people who are unpredictable is the worse part.

Different people have different personalities, emotions, mood.
Some are sincere to you, some is waiting only to use you for their benefits and when you are of no use to them, they throw you aside to mend your broken heart and wounds.
I have been through a lot, not boasting here but i have seen the different kinds of people, observing their every move especially now in my workplace.
I went through being shut away by one of my so call closest friend.
Felt back stabbed and used by my friend.
The words i heard were all meaningless and worth nothing.
As a friend we should be sincere to one another and speak out if you find anything wrong.
But, i was kept in the dark and until today we are silent towards each other.
I was angry but i have decided to let go of the past because holding to it will be an excess baggage i have to carry.


Through it all i am glad i went through all of those crazy, horrible experiences.
Because without experiences how then can we be mature in our faith in God, our response and to deal with our life in the years to come especially living with the in-laws.
Most importantly, through God's love forgiveness comes into the picture.
It's hard to love your enemies as you love yourself.
A huge challenge God has given us, so are you willing to take up the challenge to love your neighbours and your enemies?

I'm falling, I'm falling in love with you.

No special person in particular but in love with the song.
Listening to the words makes me wonder when will i find the right one?

Not the right timing yet, i know.

Remembering old school days when we wore oversize shoes, apparently mine is slightly bigger to save money from buying new school shoes every year.
The times where we ate at the school canteen and complain that the prices of nuggets and food keep rising.
Getting piles of schoolwork and trying to find ways to escape being scolded by the teacher and sit as far as we can.
Times where we took erasers, cut it into tiny pieces and start throwing at each other during school exam. ( during form 2)
Can you believe it, but yeah we did all those crazy stuffs and more which i have not listed.
At least when we look back at those years in school, our time there was not wasted!

Now i feel absolutely old.
Hopefully as the years sink in, i won't sink together with it.
Till then
=)

Maybe it's because of my upbringing with a parent who expresses them-self, making me to suppress my feelings in me.
It causes me to keep how i feel in my heart and not daring to speak it out unless i thought through very carefully.

I know it's not a good thing to keep all the anger (most of the time) in me.
In me i feel like exploding it out, but on the other hand i am putting myself into a war.

It's very hard to let my heart be the storage of how i really feel.
Sometimes i can only hide in a corner and cry.
Only God sees and only He knows.

1 important I learn this week.
In a company, never take for granted the effort your workers put in their jobs and responsibilities.

Many of my colleagues are resigning for personal reasons.
The office is getting more quiet day by day.
I thought of staying on till next year, but I think I've changed my mind.
Probably at the most is until December then i will get another job elsewhere.

My workplace takes 20 minutes drive or longer to get there.
I have to get myself ready in the morning and drive there.
Furthermore there's no allowance given for transportation to me.
Now i have to think of saving fuel by driving slow, not bring excess weight in the car, accelerate at a constant speed.

I guess this working experience has it's PROs and Cons.
The advantage, i want to manage my salary wisely.
It's my hard earn money right?