When everything seems right and fine, only God knows why i am having this fear in my heart.

Just don't know why

Weird title..
Anyway back to the point, i am not really satisfy with some tv shows.
Nowadays all kinds of show which are not educational to this generation
For example adultery,then kill their best friend because the so called best friend commit adultery with their wife.
Not gonna complain much
But well does it even educate us?
Yeah as christians we should forgive, but we can't just be silent if these sins are right in front of us right?
These shows just have the same storyline
First happy then someone betrays then end up trying to 'balas dendam'
but i enjoy the other side of the shows
the happy part, the lifestyle, the culture.
How people are so contented with their lives even though they may be poor or uneducated.
I admit sometimes i do complain about not having enough, not getting the things i want.
But well i am just another human being.
Have to learn to be happy with the things that we have.
Speaking of tv shows, today it just struck me to really appreciate our family.
We may not know when God will take our parents or our loved ones away from us.
Cherish the times..

I also don't know why i am writing all these, hah

Night

I got a shocking news today.
I am not telling until it's being confirm.
Just to create some anxiety here.
Laughs....
Dad is coming back!!! At last
After 4 days in seremban from a meeting.
Got to eat less, if not i think i will become a piggie in the future
And i guess no one can recognize me by then
Unless you have some psychic powers
One week of hols!!!
Enjoy this holidays people!
To those form 5's study hard!!!!!!!!
SPM is seriously coming
Don't play play

What is guilt?

What Is Guilt?
Romans 5:6-11


Guilt is something with which we're all familiar. Oftentimes, Christians wear the feelings of guilt like a badge of honor, in some misguided effort to demonstrate humility. But this is a tragic misunderstanding that poisons the church and steals the joy of Christ from believers. We need to stop and ask the question, "What is guilt?"

The word itself rarely appears in English translations of the Bible. When the term does occur, however, it is often misapplied. In the context of the world, "guilt" means to experience feelings of remorse, depression, or rejection for something that occurred in the past. Scripturally speaking, however, "guilt" is used only to denote responsibility. The word is never associated with feelings of shame or rejection; instead, it is more of a legal term, as when a court finds an offender "guilty."

What does this mean for the believer? Well, we should already know that we've been found guilty--we all have an enormous sin-debt that we could not pay. However, Jesus Christ took that guilt upon Himself at the cross, and He paid our debt in full. And if Christ has already paid our debt and released us from liability, we are no longer guilty. We have been tried and found forgiven.

Scripture never tells us to hide the joy of our salvation beneath a smothering blanket of guilt. Rather, we are called to rejoice in the glorious redemption in that Christ's sacrifice made possible. For this reason, we can proudly proclaim, "So if the Son makes you free, you will be free indeed" (John 8:36). Go, and be free today.

If almost every product contains melamin, then what should we eat?
Fruits and vegetables?
Even those contain insecticide.
My prediction in many years time, people will die of hunger.
Hey, what do those officials who were place into position do?
It's not a small company but major companies and just recently they detect melamin which have cause many lives.
If it's a small company i will understand.
but top, major companies.
SPM trials paper were also not well set.
Some questions were a big mess.
Confusing and not enough information given
For example add maths paper 2.
The one on circle. Even i myself don't know how to solve.
Thankfully they were other questions to be chose.
If not i think i can scream real loud in the exam hall.
Let's hope SPM they will not repeat the mistakes again.
You wanna get a job, do it well then.
Not to say those people don't know.
They have the brains think, logically be responsible.
Even in moral studies we learn the nilai bertanggungjawab.
So what do they learn huh?

Ha ha i ponteng school today!
Well today is pendidikan seni papers and some of the science stream students are taking this paper, so i rather stay at home than go to school.
thankfully mum allows!!
Next week is hari raya so to my malay friends especially aryati, Selamat Hari Raya!!!
Hope you will enjoy the meaningful time with your friends and family!
Current favourite song: Ash Like Snow By the Brilliant Green
All because of Joelle, now i am addicted to this song.
Laughs...
Anyway check it out on youtube.
I am sure you know how to find the link right?
By the way just got a message from Joelle, Clay Aiken is gay.
I was like WHAT???? He is married with another lady.
Obviously,
Anyway it has got nothing to do with me
Just that i kinda like some of his songs that he wrote.


I don't know why am i staying in this world, the purpose of it.

Browsing through

I realise nowadays my posts are lacking pictures so here goes
This was taken 2 years ago at Pangkor during our MYF Camp! My first camp! My expression is funny. Fun sitting on the long swing. I'm missing pangkor!!


=)


My group, forget the name already. We were reciting psalm 1. Fun...we did in the form of choral speaking.James being our conductor. Spot Jiunn Li in green!


Joelle, June, Me, Cicelia..Mana la they looking?


Next up taking while i was in thailand during the may holidays.
Food!!!Hungry? This is my choice by the way







Just a few months ago...
Me and Aoife, she went back to ireland already to further her studies. Both in white!

SPM trials is finally over!
One hurdle cross over, only eager for the next one to come then i will be free for a while.
So much to do list in my mind.
I am so waiting for SPM to be over.
I screw up today's add maths paper, well part of it.
See how's the results..
Today our bright school have pjpk paper too, basically everyone didn't care about that paper.
As usual 15 minutes, you can see everyone done with those 40 questions.
We laugh, we make noise, read newspaper, read story books and more
Yeah the teachers were kind enough to let us do those things.
My add maths teacher was the best, he let us out at 12.30.
The paper was suppose to end at 12.45pm.
When i could just step out of the hall, it was a relieve to me!
Among we 3 girls, yen ling, joelle and me we talk all kinds of crap
Girl stuffs!!!
then my mum came, and drop by at thursday market to get some things(personal only those 2 girls know)..
And now i am back home blogging
Ha ha!!!
Anyway got to study later.
SPM coming soon!!!
Bye!! =)

Yeah just 1 more day to go!!!!
Only add maths paper 2!! Aiming to score well in this subject.
For the past 2 days including today was the worst of the worst days
Ends the sentence with a fullstop
Just a few more hurdles to cross over only, if i could just put in my full effort to achieve my aims.
But no, i am still being my lazy self.
Feel like giving a tight slap no wait slaps on my face
Other people can work so hard and burn the midnight oil just to get good results in every subjects, but me? Only certain days or maybe i will even give up completing my sylabus.
Anyway it's not too late to realise, not that i didn't realise it at all.
Hoping for the best in SPM, can't screw up this exam!
By the way the weather is really hot. Global warming getting worse..hm..
God has been good even throughout this whole exam.
Somehow in every paper that i went through, i just have this peace within me.
I may not score well in that subject but at least i try right?
thank you God! Only You know what i am going through now. Yeah only YOU!

Thinking

Some things kept me thinking
Just recently Sitiawan which is the place where i am staying have many robbery cases happening.
Even in just 1 taman, 3 to 4 houses were being robbed, this includes the people from our church too and is in just one night.
Many people are really scare of the safety of their homes, their children.
It's one of the top issues nowadays church members are talking about
These thieves can even come in through the exhaust fan area, they open the exhaust fan and come in through that hole.
Others put some incense to make you sleep, then they will come into your house.
Fine, i am scare too, the safety and more.
Furthermore i am a girl...
Only God can protect us, no one else can.
No matter how many padlocks we fixed, somehow these people will try to get in and steal our processions.
God is the protector even in danger.
The evil one is just like these thieves, it comes to steal,kill and destroy.
If we don't do anything to prevent, somehow our lives will just be ruin.
But if we let God take control of our lives, He will enable us to live our lives to the fullest.

Manage to pass

Piano teacher just call, to inform me of my piano exam results
As what i expected, i only PASS! Thought i can get a merit but anyway thank God i didn't fail!!!
Just this morning i was thinking about piano exam, and i got a phone call from teacher..
I don't know what my mum will say.
Just pass only...Got 102/150..actually quite bad..heh
Mix emotions now..
Anyway SPM is more important!!!
Have to study hard and not playing a fool anymore.
Which means less blogging..

1 more week to go~

2 weeks over, just next week only!
Before i took this trial, i thought i couldn't make it but yet with God's help everything is possible!
Left with 9 papers more!!
After trials is study and study again..
SPM is coming nearer and nearer.
After trial i only have 1 month plus to study?
I am happy and scare at the same time.
Being weird again, i know
Happy because i can get over with SPM, scare what will happen during and after SPM.
My results, what will i do after SPM?
College? Form 6?
Form 6 is definetely not on my list, i don't think i can make it, it's hard..
Maybe college will be better.
Hah..out of words to say...

4 subjects to go and still counting.
Basically yeah after every paper, my mind automatically sets into the next one
So right now is onto Biology paper 1 and 2
Hope i can cover all that is needed in this 2 days
At least i won't be too panic next week
Wanna know next week's schedule?
Monday-Physics paper 1 and 2
Tuesday-Chemistry paper 1 and 2 ( my friend mike's favourite subject)
Wednesday- Add maths paper 1,chemistry paper 3 and biology paper 3
Thursday- Add maths paper 2 and PJPK
I don't care about pjpk, it's like nothing to me.
This is how hectic next week is
Nah not gonna give up so easily
Ha ha..
Back to life...have to clean the fan later.
Till then

God Reveals our Heart
Woe is me! For I am undone; because I am a man of unclean lips ,..... for mine eyes have seen the King.

Isaiah 6:5

There were some things about himself Isaiah didn't know-until he got into God's presence. One moment in the presence of GOD can lead to a place of repentance and renewal that you’ll never find on your own. Peter said GOD “gave repentance to the people” (Acts 5:31, NIV). Repentance is God’s gift to the struggling heart. Without it, you’ll never change. That’s why the enemy will do everything he can to keep you from it!

In God’s presence, Isaiah became convicted over things he’d been saying. They hadn’t bothered him before. Now he’s aware of his words. How about you? Angry words, bitter words, judgmental words, careless words? Listen: “Let no corrupt communication proceed out of your mouth, but that which is good to use of edifying, that it may minister grace unto the hearers. And grieve not the Holy Spirit of God” (Ephesians 2:29-30). Your words can grieve GOD!

Urgh!!!

Okay tomorrow is Est paper,so this gives me a reason why i am blogging again!
Can't wait till everything is over
I shouldn't have done that, i shouldn't (talks to self)
Let me tell you what happened,some of you know why..or maybe only 1 hah
I was waiting to get my newspaper after the physics paper, my friend is responsible to give me.
So i reminded her to pass me the newspaper.
And you know what she make me wait for so long at the stairs, if feel like a dumb person keep looking up to the stairs to see whether she was coming.
Mana tau, no sight of her.
Continue waiting until i got fed up waiting and my dad was already at the gate.
(if my dad doesn't see me in a specific time, he will just drive home, and end up i have to spend rm0.20 just to call him)
Fine i am being kiasu here, but well that's me
So i walked to the gate,only to see another friend holding my newspaper and my friend who was suppose to give me the newspaper was walking around distributing.
Yeah and i got mad, terrible of me but out of my own human response, i got angry with my friend.
Anyway i forgive my friend, have to learn not to get angry so easily.

Editted
I am sorry people, you know who you are.
I am just not myself these days.
Sorry for being in a terrible mood
I guess you'll have to see the dark side of me.
Again,sorry

I am worry...

Worried? Pray!!

So also is My Word. I send it out and it always produces fruit.

Isaiah 55:11 TLB




Are you worried today? If you are, begin these words until they take root in your heart, awaken your faith, and become your fixed attitude towards GOD! This prayer will bring results!

“Father, you told me not to fear, for you are with me. You will strengthen me, you will help me, and you will uphold me with the right hand of your righteousness. You said those who rise up against me will be confounded. (Isaiah 41:10-11) You also said that no evil would befall me neither would any plague come near my dwelling, for you have given your angels charge over me to keep me in all my ways. (Psalms 91:10-11) You declared that when I walk through the rivers of difficulty, you won’t let me drown. When I walk through the fires of oppression I will not be burned for you are the LORD my GOD. (Isaiah 42:2-3)

“You said that no weapon that is formed against me will prosper and that you will silence every tongue that rises against me in judgement because I am you servant. (Isaiah 54:17) You promised that if I ask anything according to your will, you would hear me and that I could have it. (1 John 5:14-15) You said I am blessed when I go out and blessed when I come in. (Deuteronomy 28:6) You told me to cast all my cares on you and you would take care of me.” (1 Peter 5:7)

Adapted from A Fresh Word For Today
by Bob Gass

I told myself to calm down, just do my best and leave the rest to God.


But half of me feels like screaming out loud, the exam stress


And no, i don't intend to be like that

Okay let me see, tomorrow is sunday right?
I am suppose to be studying but look what am i doing?
Anyway back to my topic, it's gonna be a busy day for me tomorrow
Have to be a backup singer during church service, and teach during sunday school.
After my whole morning spend in church, is back to my books.
Physics paper 3 on monday.
maybe some of you don't know what is paper 3 about,it's like experiment kind of thing.
Section A for fill in the blanks, section B write an experiment.
Worst thing i really don't know which experiment to focus on, so someone help me please???
Hoping for all the best in my papers, no screwing up any.
It's gonna be tough, but still in my principle, if others can why can't i?
Learning to think positive right now
Just realise, no wait realise a long time ago, i complain a lot
Even yesterday, i promise myself not to complain but yet i end up complaining to my mum
Okay yeah that's really bad,Ho ho
Got to change my attitude, pray for me ya?
Thanks =)

Last year..

I seriously didn't know i can actually pose


Please don't ask what i was looking at, me,joanne and Joelle


My friend,cicelia (she looks garang)





I decided to punch her on the face, so out of embarassment, she hide it


Having a great time of laughter


A crazy pose, i am the only nuts person

I look up to the sky
situated up so high
and seeing the stars shining so bright
It was really a wonderful night

The stars were giving me a new hope,
A hope for tomorrow
Though this life may be tough
But with God's help nothing is impossible!

1 week over, 2 more weeks to go

Today was Maths paper 1, it's okay for me.
But some questions were seriously crap.
One of them is they give you a triangle and stuffs and ask you to find the length.
The only given information is sin x=4 over 5
Fine it looks easy, but they never give x, so tell me how to find it?
They just label an angle but it's an unname angle, so i just assume it's x.
I better not complain too much
So next thing, let me see i am only left with 5 subjects more.
The 3 science subjects which seriously can kill me,physics,biology,chemistry,add maths and est
Another 2 weeks more of torture..=.=
Next week will be quite fine
Only physics paper 3, est and biology paper 1 and 2
The schedule is quite wide spread, so ya have more time to study!!!
Well if my seniors can go through it, why can't i?
By the way there were friends who gave me support even through this week!!
Everytime they see me in school, words of encouragement will come out from their mouth
Love them all!!!
People like rachel,zhi ying, suchata and more!!
Ends here

Whoops

Ha ha since i have some time, so just to update..
Today was just Maths paper 2, and i am so happy to get the chance to come back home early!!!
Hm...please don't ask me anything about trials okay?
Don't even ask how were the papers before.
Not that i did terribly, but i am just bother about the results
If consider after tomorrow there will be only 5 subjects left!!!
Can't wait for Trials and SPM to be over!!!
By the way i got my SPM timetable on monday.
SPM for me will start on the 11 november and end on the 27 november!
Yeah, i am gonna take my driving license after SPM
Dad's rules, got to play by it
I have been asking him since the beginning of this year, but all he says "concentrate on your SPM, getting a driving license is not very important, you can get it after SPM"
so eager to drive
But please i hope no accidents when i drive, ha ha
Anyway got to end here, out of things to say
And do you know i am currently eating a lot these days, even my mum says i am gonna be fat. AHH!!
Back to my exam mode

Don Moen-Like Eagles

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pNvgTPiUsdM
You can copy the link and check it out
I know i am not suppose to be blogging, anyway there is a song i will like to share.
See the title above?
That's the song
Be strengthen even as you read through the lyrics and listen to the song.

O my soul
Do you not know?
Have you not heard?
It's been told from the beginning
The Lord your God is on your side
O my soul don't be afraid
Hope in the Lord
By His righteousness and power
He will strengthen
He will guide
Chorus:
And I will soar
On wings like eagles
Held by the hand of God
I will run and not grow tired
When on His name I call
For the Lord is never weary
His ways are beyond my thoughts
I will trust in Him
With all my heart
(Repeat verses and Chorus)
And I will rest upon His promise
Patiently I'll wait...
(Repeat Chorus 2 times)
I will trust in Him
With all my heart
And I will rest upon His promise
Patiently I'll wait...

Oh ya Go and check out Daryl's blog. His link is on the right.
You won't regret.. Look at his latest post!!
Anyway All the best to all form 5 and form 6's students!!!
Next week is SPM and STPM trials!
The doom weeks...
BYE!!!

For the sake of being tag i update

1 ) Are you allowed to have a bf/gf?
Er yeah but not now of course.. Maybe later until the right guy comes along

2 ) Describe urself in one word.
Lazy

3 ) Who would you pick, someone who really loves you, or the one you love?
Can i pick both instead? Of course in a relationship you need both sides to love each other right?

4) Have you ever loved someone BEFORE but never had the courage to tell him/her?
Well, just a crush, nothing much. Hm yeah never had the courage. I learned from my mum not to approach a guy, but let that person ask me.

5 ) Does it feel good to love?
Of course!! Even in a family you need love right?

6 ) What's the best thing to do with the one you love?
Spending good and quality time going out or doing some stuffs

7) What will you say to someone who doesn't want to believe you??
Whatever! Cos i have more people who trust me

8 ) Was there ever a time that you tried to learn to love someone?
I don't know

9 ) What's your opinion about someone who's jealous?
Well tell them to have a life, what's the point of being jealous with someone else? Just live life to the fullest!

10 ) What would you say to playboys/playgirls?
Nothing better to do?


[[ * PART 2 * ]]

1 ) Best place to cry?
In my own room where i can just lock the door

2) Who do you love the most?
God

3 ) Tell us about ur dream last night?
Did i even dream last night?

4) Ever hated someone so bad?
Yeah, very bad. But i forgave that person long time ago. With God's help of course!

5 )The biggest & most hurtful lie you heard?
Few years back i think

The last person..
-you had a beer with?
I don't drink beer, the most is shandy

-you went to the movies with?
My parents and aunty

-you talked on the cell phone with?
Joelle, to tell her i reach astaka already

-you hugged?
my mum, ha ha...

-you yelled at?
My dad, cos i was in a bad mood..sorry dad!!

In the last week have you..
~Kissed someone?
Yeah i think is my mum..

~Danced crazy?
Yeah..during the WOW night


Think of the last time u were angry, why were u angry?
Last week, there was this aunty who came and stayed at my house, so ya i find that she ruins my privacy, wastes my mum's time and more..Will not go any further

If you could do anything OR wish anything, what would it be?
I will want all my wishes to come true!!!

If you could have an all expense paid trip, where will you go?
Europe,Japan,Korean, Taiwan,China,Australia,USA, Canada, Paris

Would you or have you ever blackmailed someone?
NO i won't do that

Are you old fashioned?
Ha ha i really don't know. You guess?

What would be harder for you, to tell someone you love them or that you do not love them back?
To tell someone i love them

What thing would be the hardest thing for you to give up on?
My imperfectness

5 Facts About Me:
Talks a lot if you are close with me
A lazy person who never accomplish anything
Sleeps a lot, yeah i am a pig
One of the tall girls you see around
Loves eating!!!

5 Things that Scares Me:
The dark, when it is really dark and i am all alone
Snakes,spiders, rats
People that comes and ruin my life
To be all alone?
Will i be left behind when rapture happens?

7 Songs Playing in My Head Lately:
David Archuleta-Crush
S.H.E-Ni Zui Jin Hai hao Ma
One Republic-apologize
Jordin Sparks-young and in love
Enrique-Do you know?
Chris Tomlin-How great is our God
Hillsong-Still

7 Words/Things I Always Use:
Words- HUh? Eh?Erm, Boring la, I feel so stupid, Tired, Hungry and more..
Things- Handphone,Computer, my pens and pencils, Almost everything ha ha

I tag:
Yannie
Sarah Chen
Lay Chuy

Whoever who wants to do this tag