Faith, life.

Don't be afraid to fall, because God will be always there to pick you up.
It's a reminder to myself and to you readers.

I fell many times.
There were easy falls, there were really tough falls.
Falls that broke my heart, made me cry, rip me inside and out.
I thought of comitting suicide just to end all of it.
But, the thought of leaving my love ones behind breaks my heart.
Why would i want them to be sad because i made the wrong choice.
Yeah, just because i am a pastor's kid doesn't mean i am no human being aite?
I still have the same emotions like the rest of you.

I am reaching 20 soon and my housemate told me to go and play in the playground.
Probably i will if i have the time.
Since there's a playground near my house anyway.
Still not sure if i have fully grown up.
Not the age but emotionally and spiritually.
I still lack my faith in God sometimes.
In the process of learning.

Especially about facing life's giants, i have yet to build much courage to face it.
But i hope when i meet God, i will be filled with faith and courage!
May i end the race that is pleasing to God.

Yes i can cook! =)

Used to remember whenever my mum asked me to cook last time, i will complain/ find an excuse to avoid.
But now, i am glad she forced me to peel the garlic, chop the vege, wash it, clean the fish, peel the prawn, and more.
If not i will be a girl who does not know how to cook. How sad.

Well, this picture is one of the most recent dish i cooked on my own. YES, on my own. My mum only helped me to find some of the ingredients which i have no idea where she put it.




Fried rice! Chop the ingredients, cook the rice and fry! See the results, no burns and it tastes awesome! But 1 thing i forgot to add in, potato!



So, that's for all today!

Thank you Jesus for everything You've done in my life.
Thank You for dying on the cross for me to take away my sins.
Most of all, Thank You for being my Lord, Saviour and Best Friend!
I love you Jesus!

Isn't he wonderful, isn't He wonderful
Isn't Jesus my Lord wonderful
Eyes have seen, ears have heard
It is recorded in God's word
Isn't Jesus my Lord wonderful

Just stop giving me anymore of your lame reasons.
You're my friend, one of my close friend but what you said yesterday made me question why do i treat you as one?
I had a big question mark in my head yesterday.
You gave me excuses after excuses, but at the end of the day it actually boils down to you.
If you are confidence with your own actions, why bother about how others will think/ say?
You just lack courage to stand up for your own actions and just let others affect your own decisions.

What if in the future i need you as a friend to support and stand by me?
You may be the first one to run away.
I am not mad with you, but I'm very disappointed.

At least thank you for making me stronger the next time i face the same situation.
Period

At another crossroad in my life
Deciding which path to take
It ain't easy.

Lord, please give me and my parents wisdom to make the right choice.

I thought of studying local, but my dad intends to send to USA.
Which i am having a big question mark in my mind as i am really uncertain of what the future holds for me

Surrendering.
Pushing on and having the faith.

I will hold on to You no matter how tough life is.
Because i know I've got You in my life!

Faith is a verb? by James MacDonald

One time in the Gospels it says that Jesus couldn't do much in the town "because of their unbelief" (Matthew 13:58). Wouldn't that be an awful thing to have said about your home, about your family, about you? Jesus couldn't do much in or through you because of you just didn't believe Him. "Lord, why don't You do more in our church?" Could it be because of people's unbelief?

Faith is the key. God's promises are activated by faith. Faith is not passive - it's an action verb. Don't say, "Well, I'm just waiting here. Maybe God will work; maybe He won't." What are you doing about it - Well, not much.

It's like the sick guy who needs to get better, but he doesn't go to the doctor. That's foolishness. You've got to do what you can.

Like the girl who is looking for a husband, but never goes to the Young Adult meetings at church. She just sits down in her basement. "My husband will have to find me here." Yeah, that's not a great plan. Do what you can!

Like the person who's filled with concerns and wants to have hope, but has never read the Bible.

It's God promises that give us hope. How many Scriptural promises do you know? How many promises have you memorized? How many are on the tip of your tongue? Well, no wonder you're filled with anxiety! No wonder you don't have any hope! You're not holding onto anything.

Get your heart around some of the exceedingly great and precious promises of God! Hold on to what God has said in His Word. Someday you're going to be in a difficult situation and the enemy will be try to pull you down but you've got God's Word hidden in your heart. His words will flood you with courage and fill your life with faith.

"God helps those who help themselves" - is not in the Bible but it is a biblical concept. Faith has to be active to be real. Remember the guy in 2 Kings 5 who had leprosy and Gold told him he had to go dip in the river? In faith, he had to do what he could. Like the woman in poverty in 2 Kings 4 who had to collect containers to hold all that oil God was giving her - she did what she could. Like a warrior heading into battle, he has to pick up his weapon.

Put some action behind what you believe and watch God work.

Excerpted from "Faith Is a Verb" by Walk in the Word Ministries (used by permission).

The measure

Let the grace of the Lord be the measure of your sufficiency;
let the peace of the Lord be the measure of your quietness;
let the power of the Lord be the measure of your strength;
let the goodness of the Lord be the measure of your contentment;
let the love of the Lord be the measure of your service;
let the faithfulness of the Lord be the measure of your trust;
let the beauty of the Lord be the measure of your worship;
let the fullness of the Lord be the measure of your joy;
let the sovereignty of the Lord be the measure of your confidence;
let the promises of the Lord be the measure of your expectations;
let the coming of the Lord be the measure of hope.

Revolution Sitiawan

Thank you God for all You've done in Sitiawan for the past weekend!
I am sure the work has begun and will continue until God says it is finished.
It was a blast and coming together as different denominations in one body of Christ to worship together!
Great ministry time, especially dealing with my own struggles and breaking free from all bondages.
I am going to surrender Everything into God's hands.
Not going to hold anything back anymore.

I am really blessed by the sermons by Pastor Dave, Pastor Andy and Pastor Kenneth!
May God give me the strength to live my life for Him!

Let's all spread this world with the LOVE OF GOD!


We want to run to the altar
And catch the fire
To stand in the gap between the living and the dead
Give us a heart of compassion for a world without vision
We will make a difference bringing hope to our land

How can i be a change in this community? In my country?

It's through God's love.
But if we don't spread God's love, then it's over!

That's what i learn from REVOLUTION yesterday night.

I have the vision, but still not putting it into actions yet.
Have not speak up, stand up and show up.

I believe it's not too late yet.
So, are we ready to make a difference?

Give thanks in all circumstances

And the ball keeps rolling............

Fine getting to the point.
If those of you whom i may not have told, since only my college friends know about my missing purse.
I dropped it at college on Wednesday after my class.
Did not realise it went missing until thursday morning when i was packing my bag.
I was 'Oh No where did i put my purse?'
The hunting began. Search high and low for it.
Went to college ask the office whether anyone return my purse.
But the answer was no, sorry.
So i was quite worry and sad because my bus ticket, ic, atm card was inside my purse.

Yet in my heart a little voice said: ' Give thanks in all circumstances.'
My dad also reminded me to Praise God although my purse was missing.
And with a heavy heart i came back using the money i borrowed from my housemate.
Reached home and still asking God that it will be found.

And you know what??????????
This morning as in Friday, Mr Michael my college's student services director called me.
He told me: " I don't know why is your purse on my table, but just calling you to inform you that it is with me."
Hallelujah! All my important documents is still inside, hopefully my money too.
But well it's a lesson to be learn, no matter how hard life may be, just give thanks and God will reward you!
Gave my parents a big, big hug! Because i was so worried!
Thank you for those who cared, helping me to find my purse!
=)
And also thank you to the big, great and wonderful God up there who is always watching out for me!
Love you all!