Faith, life.

Don't be afraid to fall, because God will be always there to pick you up.
It's a reminder to myself and to you readers.

I fell many times.
There were easy falls, there were really tough falls.
Falls that broke my heart, made me cry, rip me inside and out.
I thought of comitting suicide just to end all of it.
But, the thought of leaving my love ones behind breaks my heart.
Why would i want them to be sad because i made the wrong choice.
Yeah, just because i am a pastor's kid doesn't mean i am no human being aite?
I still have the same emotions like the rest of you.

I am reaching 20 soon and my housemate told me to go and play in the playground.
Probably i will if i have the time.
Since there's a playground near my house anyway.
Still not sure if i have fully grown up.
Not the age but emotionally and spiritually.
I still lack my faith in God sometimes.
In the process of learning.

Especially about facing life's giants, i have yet to build much courage to face it.
But i hope when i meet God, i will be filled with faith and courage!
May i end the race that is pleasing to God.