Wednesday, April 30

Friday, April 25

You know what to do

My friend has been asking me hey you so free ah? Update your blog quite often. An answer to this question. NO i am extremely not free. I have more work than you expect me to do. I have tons of things to study and exam is starting next week! So you understand now? This is just my way of releasing stress or rather occupy myself by relaxing. And i love blogging, this is my blog and i can do whatever i like with it. If you dislike reading this blog, as i said before there is this button, right up there red in colour with a cross. Just press that and this page will disappear immediately. I am not pushing anyone to read my blog, not even seeking attention from anyone. This is just my life ok? For criticism, you can tell me but in a nice way. Not that you can accept criticism easily right?

Just to express how i feel, tensed up, feeling stressed with the word EXAM!!! yeah really trust me. You may not see it through the look of me but deep in me the worry is there. It's like unstoppable work. It keeps coming. Well it's SPM year so this is what i have to expect anyway.

Sometimes i feel like blasting, to tell really how i feel but i just keep and store it in me. I feel like letting it all out but somehow i can't. Many things that i am unplease with, frustated, angry but people will start saying i'm emo. In school especially, i still remember last friday something bad, i mean real bad happened in school. Got scolded by someone for passing up my peka 1 day late. And someone scold me as if i didn't hand in for a week or months or even a decade. As if i am a really lazy student. And yeah that person said that she will minus marks, go on minus la. I mean like just by threatening me in this way can make me give up? NO way!!! I already tell that person sorry, i promise i will hand in today but this is the response? Please la not that i did something bad to you or what? I can see through the eyes that she really hate me. Don't ask me why. Cause i don't know it myself. So i guess someone hates me after all. Crazy day in school and yeah it happened early in the morning, only to ruin my nice and beautiful day in school. But i don't hate that person, instead i respect the person. If i hate, it hurts me even more. How i wish that person just stop giving me problem in school. Go away will ya? I'm blaberring again. Ignore it if you want.

Thursday, April 24

Didn't expect the unexpected

I got a news today!!! Piano exam is on the 24 June 2008! It's super early ok especially all the way at sitiawan. This is also the first time it's soooooooo early. Looking at few years back when i was form 3 this also happen. But it was in july not june!!! AHHHh!!! Didn't expect it really trust me! I was shocked and said to myself WHAT THE!!! Not what the heck. But it has advantages too because i can fully concentrate to prepare for my SPM trials! So now no more play play, it's about practise and practise!!! And it's EVERYDAY not when i feel like it!!

For the past few days i feel lost, confused, mixed emotions, scared, worried, stressed! For the 1st time i am saying i am stress here right? Well i have no idea. You think? I am really worry about what would happen to my results for mid year exam and my piano exam. Wondering will i do well? SPM results and more. God please help me. I can't do it on my own. Really and truly this prayer is from my heart. I don't think i can go through it without God! Anyway pray for me ya? Next week is mid year exam. Most likely won't blog for a while. I guess i'll end here!!

Wednesday, April 23

What do i want to do after SPM?

Almost everyone is asking me what do you want to do after SPM? I know i have post this before but suddenly i feel kinda lost in making the right decisions! If i get good result, go to college if not do form 6. Actually form 6, the reality is really hard but at least i get to save my parents money but no i am not a smart student. So i suppose college is the only option? About college they have pre-u courses. Divided into 2, A levels or Matriculation. People say A-levels is harder than matriculation and it takes a longer time. Well i do agree on that. The longer i study, the more it costs. And well most likely i will choose AUSMAT or SAM. Which college will i go? Methodist College? Help university college? Sunway? Taylors? I won't be going to sunway or taylors, the fees are really high and it can really give a hole in my dad's pocket! Help is one of my choices because i was or am thinking of doing Pschology but again MONEY!!! And well me being a pschology is now becoming a doubt. I know every career has a risk, challenge, hurdles to cross over. So i guess Methodist College is the final choice. If i go there, as some of you know pastor's children get a 100% scholarship on tuition fees. And there are really some smart students out there, but me well NO!!! I better work hard this year. Aiming for Methodist College. God i really need Your guidance now! I know i can't do it on my own. And i am feeling lost in this big, wide world. Many people have disappoint me.Tell me where to go. Show me the right direction.

MId year exam is next week. Almost every student in my school feels the pressure and stress. Anyway good luck! Happy studying. So long for 3 weeks studying!!!!!

Monday, April 21

Since someone requested me to write more about the camp so let me try to elaborate on what happened!

On friday afternoon which is on the 18th April 2008! A group from my church went for church camp! Some went by bus, some prefer to drive instead! For me i went by bus because my dad went to Seremban for a exhibition! So accompany by my mum. The journey there was ok! But it took so long for the bus to reach. Maybe because it's bigger than the car so it takes more time to reach. hey I'm putting physics into my daily life! Laughs!!! I started t 2.14pm and reach Sungai Petani at 6.30pm! Reach the lobby, waiting for my mum to check in. After that i took the hotel shuttle to my room! If i walk it will take me a while to reach because the distance is far! Reach my room only to see my friend and her sister watching tv. Thought they bath!!! I know my guessing is always wrong! So we watch tv for a while then we went for dinner. We bathed after dinner! Oh by the way the dinner was ok but lack of vegetables! And some say it's spicy! Session 1 started that night! The speaker was ok!

19 April
Woke up in the morning, brush my teeth, washed my face and went for breakfast! The food was ok, had a lot of choices to be choose! Went back took my bible and went back to the hall! Session 2 and 3 was divided by just a few minutes break! Lunch, then session 4! After the session my friend's family decided to go out for a drive so i tag along instead. We went to her cousin's house to fetch her cousin for shopping at Village Mall! This mall was just opened recently so the things were cheap! I bought a shirt from body glove, and 2 pants. Actually me and my friend we went to buy the pants first. And being so crazy about pants now, i decided to get 2! But was thinking haiya should have bought more! The body glove shirt just costs rm15 so it's like really cheap and a great deal for a branded shirt like that! After buying, went back to hotel again! Ate steamboat dinner! And just because the 3 of us were late, we had to do something. But i got the most, had the honour to pray for the food and serve drinks. Wait i am the only one who did something! After dinner went back to the room, take a bath and straight for session! The night was over with me sleeping on the comfy bed!

20 April
Oops we woke up late! I was woken up in the morning with a big bang on the door at 7.58am! And my friend's cousin was like hey got to go already for breakfast, i told her we will go there by ourselves because none of us are prepared! Still in sleepy mode. So we wash up and walk all the way for breakfast.Had a nice meal. Ate different things than the day before. As usual session. After that lunch! Before lunch, went to the room to pack up, take my luggage and drag it all the way to the lunch place! By the time i reach there i was extremely tired. Hey imagine dragging a bag and walking at the same time! Totally crazy!!! After lunch, wait for my parents to pack up and went back with a church member! Before going home, we went to someone's place for house-warming! Pray for the house and bless the family! I reached back home at 6.30pm!

The camp was fun, but wait i have something uncomplished, me and my friend didn't talk until that late. Instead we were more occupied with the tv. The speaker was good! But can be quite long sometimes. All in all fun!!! But 3 days is not enough!!! I want at least 4 days then i can really enjoy!!! All for now people!!!

Sunday, April 20

Church camp!!!

I'm back from church camp! this year's camp was held in Cinta Sayang Golf Resort from the 18-20 April 2008! Because i am so lazy to write captions, so just enjoy the pics ya? Hands numb and pain so well a pictures worth a million words!! ha ha!!! Oh well i enjoyed the camp especially got to sleep with friends instead of parents. A wonderful thing!! Sh don't tell my parents!!!
Guess who is the crazy fella who is laughing? Oh btw that is a massage chair to massage your ass or something!


Ice cream!!!!


Because the weather is so hot so they bought some ice cream instead!


Waterfall


3 girls with a beautiful view


The musicians


During dinner


Name tag


The place where i stayed! Room 645


























Friday, April 18

Going for camp!!!! Will be back on sunday night!!! Enjoy your weekend people!!!
this will be my shortest post after all!! ha ha!!! So ya bye!!!!

Thursday, April 17

Wat???? Mid year exam starts on the 30 April!!! Hey it's this month le!!! OMG!! I thought it was on the 5 of may!!! Ahh whatever!!! Maybe i am experiencing before-exam-stress-mode! Have pimpers coming out again!! Grr i dislike pimpers!!

Anyway 2 and a half weeks of exams..torture or a nightmare maybe?
But anyway the first day is just PJPK! Time to enjoy this paper and hentam everything! Cos it's not included in SPM or anything!And yeah basically the maximum time to do this paper is just 15 minutes. The shortest maybe a few seconds!

You can say i just woke up from not-expecting-exams mode! =p

You may ask how am i? To some i will tell i am perfectly fine/ ok. For maybe some people i trust i will tell you what is really happening. As i have told before, i lost trust in people. And i really mean it! You can say i am feeling insecure!

Hey tomorrow is church camp!!! Hip hip hooray!!! Leaps for joy! Jump like a lamb! Wait why am i so happy? Ha ha!!! Fine crazy mode back! Going to be back on sunday! So won't be updating till i come back! Heh!!! =) Just because of the church camp i am skipping IU (International Understanding) Night! And i think i am going to skip telematch too! Have some things caught up!

I have been thinking lately have i been a good friend? Maybe yes maybe no! I am not sure too! Just drop a comment of your opinion!

Wednesday, April 16

Tagged by Sarah And Michael!!! Those 2!!!!=p

Instructions: Remove ONE question from below, and add in your personal question, make it a total of 20 questions, then tag 8 people in your list, list them out at the end of this post. Notify them in their chat box that he/she has been tagged. Whoever does the tag will have blessings from all.

1. What have you realised recently?
Who my true friends are, mid year exam is starting soon

2. Have you given your first kiss away?
Yeah if it's my mum does it count? Ha ha!! It's a sign of love ya know?

3. If you were to be stranded on a deserted island, who are the 11 blog buddies you would take with you?
Those on my link, joelle...Meaning all of them..cos they can really talk and talk expecially with some specific people!!!

4. Where is the place that you want to go the most?
A place where only a few know me, freedom, peace, relaxing, enjoy life! Or heaven!! Not that i want to die now!!

5. If you can have 1 dream to come true, what would it be?
A new change in this world!!

6. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain?
Of course..don't tell me you didn't see a rainbow before?

7. What are you afraid to lose the most now?
Everything i have, my friends and family!

8. If you win $1 million, what would you do?
Save maybe half or quarter in the bank, give some to my parents and spend the rest!

9. If you meet someone that you love, would you confess to him/her?
Er i prefer the person to approach me, not i approach him!=p!!

10.List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you.
Hm what to say about Sarah? She is a good friend,nice person, pretty!!
I think that's enough right sarah?
Michael hm...
He is a funny guy, out-going type, talks a lot
Add 1 more he loves drinking tea!! ha ha!!

11. What do i think of myself?
I am imperfect as i always say. I am still learning in every way. Sometimes i may hurt the people around me without realising.

12. Which type of person do you hate the most?
backstabbers and split personalities. Cos you won't know their true identity!

13. What is the one thing you cannot live without?
God!!!! I can't live without Him! Because He controls my life not me!!

14. If you have faults, would you rather the people around you point out to you or would you rather they keep quiet?
Yeah, depends if they are my close friends, then i will accept what they say. But eitherwise, i need to reconsider

15. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
Jesus Christ, friends, family!

16. Are you a shopaholic or not?
I dont know...ask my parents whether i spend a lot of money or not! I think i am a good girl! heh!!

17. If your house burned down, what is the ONE thing you’d save from your room?
Can i save the whole house instead? OK no more jokes. My important documents! without it i can't get a job or anything!

18. If you have a chance. Which part of your character you would like to change?
the imperfectness

19. Whats the last shocking thing you've seen or heard?
Mid year exam is early of May which is during my birthday!! ah!!!

20. [supposely my question] Are you happy you've been tag by me? why?
Don't know!!! Ha ha!!! But didn't expect this couple to tag me at one shot!!!

Now for who i will tagged!!
- Cicelia
- Chia ching
- Lay Chuy
- Fern Yi
- Darren
- Xiao Juan
- Tiffany
- Thomas
- whoever is reading this!!!

Sunday, April 13

Week preview

Let me see what am i going to write? I also don't know leh!! Ha ha!!
Anyway Church Camp is coming up!! Hooray!!! Get to enjoy myself!!! But wait did i really say enjoy? See how will the camp be first.

For the past week, well my mood has been ok so far. Which means i am totally hyper crazy in school. Don't believe ask my friends! Crap and talk. Oh ya we really had fun in school especially when we got to combine our tables and sit anywhere we like because the afternoon session have their monthly test. Something actually happened the night before. It almost make me lose my patience but well i kept cool! Thank God really if not i may say something which will hurt someone!But sometimes if i am too angry, i will end up crying. I know i am an emo person. Don't tell me you don't have emotions! About the thing that happened please don't ask any further ok? Cos it's kinda personal to me.

This coming week is gonna be another hectic week with 4 tests in mind. Bm, English, Moral and EST!
Bm-Komsas and tatabahasa
English-Literature which is the novel "The Pearl"
Moral- Soalan Esei
EST-Objective questions

So i am going to be busy again. Maybe i will be crazy, no wait i won't! Know why? Because i am a person who only begins to stress up last minute. I caught you!!! ha ha!! That's all!!

Saturday, April 12

Life of a student

Studying so hard!!! They say studying hard gives you a bright future. And i agree with that! But am i studying hard? Er i think maybe not!


This is where everyday we go to school and sit on those things!!! And spend 6 hours in school! A desk and a chair!


Just by studying and studying doesn't help much. You have to study and play too! If not it ruins your brain!


I guess this is me now. Maybe? Ha ha!!! Laugh all you want!

Friday, April 11

Random pictures

Pictures last year during the holidays.
Interact project at Rumah Wawasan!


The interact club invited a clown to entertain the children and he made balloons for the children.
Me with a boy..he's cute right? Comes to my church for sunday school. I was like hey i know you!!! Ha ha!! Love that balloon in a heart shape!


Coming up YLDP 2007! In case you don't know what it stands for. It is Youth Leadership Development Programme! That's how i got to meet some friends there!
From left Fern Yi, me, Kevin and Darren. Part of my small group!


Group picture!
From clockwise Kevin, Paul, me, Jared, Darren, Weldon, Fern Yi and Tiffany!


I miss you guys!!! It was fun when we got to share our personal life and experiences. Will never forget the moments we talk and talk but sadly we only have a limited of time to talk. But well i can meet tiffany in church. Ha ha!!!
Ciaoz.....