Maybe it's because of my upbringing with a parent who expresses them-self, making me to suppress my feelings in me.
It causes me to keep how i feel in my heart and not daring to speak it out unless i thought through very carefully.

I know it's not a good thing to keep all the anger (most of the time) in me.
In me i feel like exploding it out, but on the other hand i am putting myself into a war.

It's very hard to let my heart be the storage of how i really feel.
Sometimes i can only hide in a corner and cry.
Only God sees and only He knows.