Another important lesson i learned while gaining this working experience is to be very careful with people who will only be your friend when they need something from you.

I have experienced it myself when they need something they will be extra nice to me and also to have a conversation.
But when they don't, the rest of the days will be a silent gesture and my presence is ignored.

I really admire the malay colleagues in my office, because they have freedom to talk with each other without expecting something in return and also to enjoy and laugh with each other.
Whereas with some people, i feel so tensed whenever i am with them.
I feel the gap and the distance.
I have tried to be their friend, but when people are not open to you, they are just treating you as invisible.

Without God's love, my response will be so different from now.
It will be how the world will response and this is how war happens.

Christmas 2011

Christmas tree in Mid Valley, captured with a professional camera.

2011 is a year where many electronic appliances broke down.
For example my dad's camera.
So, he decided to get a dslr- Canon 660D!
To date, i have been capturing more than him which is a surprise because usually he captures more than me.

There are more functions in a dslr to play with especially the lightings!
Hopefully it will serve us well!

I think one of the most scariest dream ever is dreaming about my colleagues.
Not that they are scary but the dream goes like this.
I was working in the office like any other day and i was unhappy with my boss.
So i told one of my colleagues how i felt.
But she ended up reporting to my boss so my boss was very angry with me and he intend to take revenge!

I woke up this morning, being so terrified and scared that i prayed i will not make any major, huge mistakes when i am working.
If not my dream may come true.
p/s : My boss is a nice person and i know he won't be scary as my dream is. =)

1 more week till i get my next salary.
It gets me excited when i know i will get my hard earn money, although most of the time at work i barely do much.
At least this keeps me going and continue to work even in the future!
=)

So many things are running in my mind.
I mean half of me wants to stay here, but half of me says staying at another place may be a good experience for me.

Many people said that even if my parents stay or go to another church, it won't affect me.
Who says it won't?
Seriously, i am part of the family and i may not be directly affected but definitely indirectly!

For my perspective, we've been here for 11 years, going on 12 i guess.
Some how or another one day we have to move away from this little town to another place where God will call us.
Since this year i am more free while waiting for uni, i have the time to pack and clear the house, but what about the next year, and the year after?

I appreciate the prayers from members who care for us and pray that we will stay.
But no offense, if you are letting God's will be done, we should be praying Lord let Your will be done in this family wherever You call them to be.
I feel like there's a string tied to me and my family to stay back.
Or maybe i am the only one who feels that.

In so much confusion and doubts now.

Sitiawan has been a place filled with wonderful memories, no doubt about that.
But sometimes i just need an adventure with my family, at a different place.