I wish i could...

Well for my last post,i was not exaggerating it. That was really how i felt. Anyway i am not feeling good today either. My brain is about to explode. Reasons why...
I was doing house work since morning. That includes cleaning my room, fold the clothings, dust the stupid, horrible and annoying cobwebs. Why i say it's annoying cos if you leave it for a while, the spiders come and irrode your house with their nests, build up their webs and that causes a lot of problem. Those insects....

I really need some energy booster..something to revive my brain, my energy. I feel like collapsing on the bed and have my deep sleep but work haven't done. Lots of work to do. I am able to sleep much better if it is all complete. Anyway yeah thanks for the concern...some of you know why. Thanks for the encouragement!

Back to my ever boring topic..as there was a comment i received..I keep giving other people encouragement to go on in life and never to give up but why am i reacting the other way? I tell my friends to cheer up when they face problems, to trust in God that everything will be alright but there i was posting a blog on wednesday afternoon complaining about my life and how much i really want to die. Sorry for the childish way i have been. Complaining like a child and never bother to put in the effort to change my mistakes. I wish many times i can stand up strong to face my problems but maybe my faith is getting low. Not that i don't have faith that God will guide me through the problems but lack of faith to face it! I learn my lesson. Face problems and don't run away from it! Be happy, joyful and thankful in all circumstances for this is the will for me through Christ!

Need to think positive..and be who i was..the real and true me! Hey i love being me! =)

She knows she is sad, she knows what is going with her life

Oh man...i feel like bursting and exploding now. I just want to go aside break down and cry. I am like a balloon, ready to explode anytime the pin comes to me. I feel like ending this life but something stops me from doing all these stuff. Something is totally wrong with me. My mood, my life. What am i doing to change all these? NOTHING! Yeah i say Nothing at all! I am just like a dumb fella waiting for change to happen. Stupid me right? Well i know it. Many things are going on with my life. And how i dread having holidays. Boring holidays. I want to go somewhere other than my house. Be it Kl, thailand, ipoh,penang or overseas. I need relaxation of mind.

Why oh why things are going wrong with my friends too? I can't help them but instead pray. that's all i can do. Pray. A helpless person to help another helpless person. The worst theory ever. I can't even help myself but am trying to help another person. Fine sorry for saying all these negative stuffs but really i have enough. Why am i letting all these control me? I want to be a strong person. Face life and know there is a purpose to live. God strengthen me!!!

I admit I AM AN EMO PERSOn!!!!!!!! what can u do about it? tell me!!!!!!!! You don't face problems in life? You don't even cried for something before? So stop saying i am being too religious or being too emo or being myself. To whoever out there who dislikes me...

Better stop here

With all I am

into your hand
i commit again
with all I am
for you Lord

you hold my world
in the palm of your hand
and I'm yours forever

CHORUS
Jesus I believe in you
Jesus I belong to you
you're the reason that I live
the reason that I sing
with all I am

I'll walk with you
wherever you go
through tears and joy
I'll trust in you

and I will live
in all of your ways and
your promises forever


This song has really give me the inspiration to move on with life. Yeah i know i am a person who keeps everything to myself. Maybe because i am an only child or use to it since young. But the chorus keeps running in my head when i am down. To really put my trust in Christ and stay strong in Him. Never to give up with life and to run this marathon of life.

Oh ya i am not trying to be preachy or to tell everyone that i am a holy type of person but that's me. I know especially some of the non-christians may not like it. But this is the way I am. Accept it but if you can't then i have nothing to say.

Class 'gotong-royong'! 5S2 rocks!!!!!

OK fine let me tell you my whole morning was being spend in school for mainly class painting..Since pictures worth a million words so just enjoy the pictures. Oh ya thanks Kok for helping our class though you are from sc1! By the way there were 10 girls and only sadly 2 boys that came to help. Including kok only 3 guys. Which is a total disappointment. Anyway those who went including me had a really great time. Furthermore this is my first time trying my hands on painting. Ha ha..Ok enjoy the pics...

This proves that girls are more hardworking than guys..booooo


Joelle, me, cecilia and pei fan


An intruder behind us..chase him away...


Mastura and Farahani..


Sadeesh the paling bising guy in the class..talks a lot..oh ya the paper he's holding is some work done by him..sejarah..


The hardworking people




Ha ha i caught these 2 people going out together..


Kok doing his crazy stunts..


Part 2


This time my assistant monitor Yam and Sadeesh..


Kok being the hardworking person..wiping the fan


Presenting my monitor Siti..She is really a responsible and hardworking person so guys go after her!!! ha ha


Crazy stunts...


He thought he could use a fake card to call his gf..ha ha!!!!!!





















Lazy to type for every photo caption..Anyway all in all it was fun and exciting..Actually there are more pictures than this but just select these few...
Conclusion for today girls are more hardworking than guys!! ha ha!!! Don't get offended guys..That's all for now..Really tired!!

Having some fun with my name

What Praise Yong Means

You are influential and persuasive. You tend to have a lot of power over people. Generally, you use your powers for good. You excel at solving other people's problems. Occasionally, you do get a little selfish and persuade people to do things that are only in your interest. You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You're always up to something. You have a ton of energy, and most people can't handle you. You're very intense. You definitely are a handful, and you're likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun. You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection. You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive. You have the classic "Type A" personality. You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing. You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long. You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start. You are the total package - suave, sexy, smart, and strong. You have the whole world under your spell, and you can influence almost everyone you know. You don't always resist your urges to crush the weak. Just remember, they don't have as much going for them as you do. You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone. You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together. At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together. You are a free spirit, and you resent anyone who tries to fence you in. You are unpredictable, adventurous, and always a little surprising. You may miss out by not settling down, but you're too busy having fun to care. You are well rounded, with a complete perspective on life. You are solid and dependable. You are loyal, and people can count on you. At times, you can be a bit too serious. You tend to put too much pressure on yourself. You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people. You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts. You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals. You are deeply philosophical and thoughtful. You tend to analyze every aspect of your life. You are intuitive, brilliant, and quite introverted. You value your time alone. Often times, you are grumpy with other people. You don't appreciate them trying to interfere in your affairs.

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