The reality of living in this world sometimes makes me happy, sometimes it just drives me nuts.
Dealing with people who are unpredictable is the worse part.

Different people have different personalities, emotions, mood.
Some are sincere to you, some is waiting only to use you for their benefits and when you are of no use to them, they throw you aside to mend your broken heart and wounds.
I have been through a lot, not boasting here but i have seen the different kinds of people, observing their every move especially now in my workplace.
I went through being shut away by one of my so call closest friend.
Felt back stabbed and used by my friend.
The words i heard were all meaningless and worth nothing.
As a friend we should be sincere to one another and speak out if you find anything wrong.
But, i was kept in the dark and until today we are silent towards each other.
I was angry but i have decided to let go of the past because holding to it will be an excess baggage i have to carry.


Through it all i am glad i went through all of those crazy, horrible experiences.
Because without experiences how then can we be mature in our faith in God, our response and to deal with our life in the years to come especially living with the in-laws.
Most importantly, through God's love forgiveness comes into the picture.
It's hard to love your enemies as you love yourself.
A huge challenge God has given us, so are you willing to take up the challenge to love your neighbours and your enemies?

I'm falling, I'm falling in love with you.

No special person in particular but in love with the song.
Listening to the words makes me wonder when will i find the right one?

Not the right timing yet, i know.

Remembering old school days when we wore oversize shoes, apparently mine is slightly bigger to save money from buying new school shoes every year.
The times where we ate at the school canteen and complain that the prices of nuggets and food keep rising.
Getting piles of schoolwork and trying to find ways to escape being scolded by the teacher and sit as far as we can.
Times where we took erasers, cut it into tiny pieces and start throwing at each other during school exam. ( during form 2)
Can you believe it, but yeah we did all those crazy stuffs and more which i have not listed.
At least when we look back at those years in school, our time there was not wasted!

Now i feel absolutely old.
Hopefully as the years sink in, i won't sink together with it.
Till then
=)

Maybe it's because of my upbringing with a parent who expresses them-self, making me to suppress my feelings in me.
It causes me to keep how i feel in my heart and not daring to speak it out unless i thought through very carefully.

I know it's not a good thing to keep all the anger (most of the time) in me.
In me i feel like exploding it out, but on the other hand i am putting myself into a war.

It's very hard to let my heart be the storage of how i really feel.
Sometimes i can only hide in a corner and cry.
Only God sees and only He knows.

1 important I learn this week.
In a company, never take for granted the effort your workers put in their jobs and responsibilities.

Many of my colleagues are resigning for personal reasons.
The office is getting more quiet day by day.
I thought of staying on till next year, but I think I've changed my mind.
Probably at the most is until December then i will get another job elsewhere.

My workplace takes 20 minutes drive or longer to get there.
I have to get myself ready in the morning and drive there.
Furthermore there's no allowance given for transportation to me.
Now i have to think of saving fuel by driving slow, not bring excess weight in the car, accelerate at a constant speed.

I guess this working experience has it's PROs and Cons.
The advantage, i want to manage my salary wisely.
It's my hard earn money right?