Faith, life.

Don't be afraid to fall, because God will be always there to pick you up.
It's a reminder to myself and to you readers.

I fell many times.
There were easy falls, there were really tough falls.
Falls that broke my heart, made me cry, rip me inside and out.
I thought of comitting suicide just to end all of it.
But, the thought of leaving my love ones behind breaks my heart.
Why would i want them to be sad because i made the wrong choice.
Yeah, just because i am a pastor's kid doesn't mean i am no human being aite?
I still have the same emotions like the rest of you.

I am reaching 20 soon and my housemate told me to go and play in the playground.
Probably i will if i have the time.
Since there's a playground near my house anyway.
Still not sure if i have fully grown up.
Not the age but emotionally and spiritually.
I still lack my faith in God sometimes.
In the process of learning.

Especially about facing life's giants, i have yet to build much courage to face it.
But i hope when i meet God, i will be filled with faith and courage!
May i end the race that is pleasing to God.

Yes i can cook! =)

Used to remember whenever my mum asked me to cook last time, i will complain/ find an excuse to avoid.
But now, i am glad she forced me to peel the garlic, chop the vege, wash it, clean the fish, peel the prawn, and more.
If not i will be a girl who does not know how to cook. How sad.

Well, this picture is one of the most recent dish i cooked on my own. YES, on my own. My mum only helped me to find some of the ingredients which i have no idea where she put it.




Fried rice! Chop the ingredients, cook the rice and fry! See the results, no burns and it tastes awesome! But 1 thing i forgot to add in, potato!



So, that's for all today!

Thank you Jesus for everything You've done in my life.
Thank You for dying on the cross for me to take away my sins.
Most of all, Thank You for being my Lord, Saviour and Best Friend!
I love you Jesus!

Isn't he wonderful, isn't He wonderful
Isn't Jesus my Lord wonderful
Eyes have seen, ears have heard
It is recorded in God's word
Isn't Jesus my Lord wonderful

Just stop giving me anymore of your lame reasons.
You're my friend, one of my close friend but what you said yesterday made me question why do i treat you as one?
I had a big question mark in my head yesterday.
You gave me excuses after excuses, but at the end of the day it actually boils down to you.
If you are confidence with your own actions, why bother about how others will think/ say?
You just lack courage to stand up for your own actions and just let others affect your own decisions.

What if in the future i need you as a friend to support and stand by me?
You may be the first one to run away.
I am not mad with you, but I'm very disappointed.

At least thank you for making me stronger the next time i face the same situation.
Period