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My friend has been asking me hey you so free ah? Update your blog quite often. An answer to this question. NO i am extremely not free. I have more work than you expect me to do. I have tons of things to study and exam is starting next week! So you understand now? This is just my way of releasing stress or rather occupy myself by relaxing. And i love blogging, this is my blog and i can do whatever i like with it. If you dislike reading this blog, as i said before there is this button, right up there red in colour with a cross. Just press that and this page will disappear immediately. I am not pushing anyone to read my blog, not even seeking attention from anyone. This is just my life ok? For criticism, you can tell me but in a nice way. Not that you can accept criticism easily right?

Just to express how i feel, tensed up, feeling stressed with the word EXAM!!! yeah really trust me. You may not see it through the look of me but deep in me the worry is there. It's like unstoppable work. It keeps coming. Well it's SPM year so this is what i have to expect anyway.

Sometimes i feel like blasting, to tell really how i feel but i just keep and store it in me. I feel like letting it all out but somehow i can't. Many things that i am unplease with, frustated, angry but people will start saying i'm emo. In school especially, i still remember last friday something bad, i mean real bad happened in school. Got scolded by someone for passing up my peka 1 day late. And someone scold me as if i didn't hand in for a week or months or even a decade. As if i am a really lazy student. And yeah that person said that she will minus marks, go on minus la. I mean like just by threatening me in this way can make me give up? NO way!!! I already tell that person sorry, i promise i will hand in today but this is the response? Please la not that i did something bad to you or what? I can see through the eyes that she really hate me. Don't ask me why. Cause i don't know it myself. So i guess someone hates me after all. Crazy day in school and yeah it happened early in the morning, only to ruin my nice and beautiful day in school. But i don't hate that person, instead i respect the person. If i hate, it hurts me even more. How i wish that person just stop giving me problem in school. Go away will ya? I'm blaberring again. Ignore it if you want.

Didn't expect the unexpected

I got a news today!!! Piano exam is on the 24 June 2008! It's super early ok especially all the way at sitiawan. This is also the first time it's soooooooo early. Looking at few years back when i was form 3 this also happen. But it was in july not june!!! AHHHh!!! Didn't expect it really trust me! I was shocked and said to myself WHAT THE!!! Not what the heck. But it has advantages too because i can fully concentrate to prepare for my SPM trials! So now no more play play, it's about practise and practise!!! And it's EVERYDAY not when i feel like it!!

For the past few days i feel lost, confused, mixed emotions, scared, worried, stressed! For the 1st time i am saying i am stress here right? Well i have no idea. You think? I am really worry about what would happen to my results for mid year exam and my piano exam. Wondering will i do well? SPM results and more. God please help me. I can't do it on my own. Really and truly this prayer is from my heart. I don't think i can go through it without God! Anyway pray for me ya? Next week is mid year exam. Most likely won't blog for a while. I guess i'll end here!!

What do i want to do after SPM?

Almost everyone is asking me what do you want to do after SPM? I know i have post this before but suddenly i feel kinda lost in making the right decisions! If i get good result, go to college if not do form 6. Actually form 6, the reality is really hard but at least i get to save my parents money but no i am not a smart student. So i suppose college is the only option? About college they have pre-u courses. Divided into 2, A levels or Matriculation. People say A-levels is harder than matriculation and it takes a longer time. Well i do agree on that. The longer i study, the more it costs. And well most likely i will choose AUSMAT or SAM. Which college will i go? Methodist College? Help university college? Sunway? Taylors? I won't be going to sunway or taylors, the fees are really high and it can really give a hole in my dad's pocket! Help is one of my choices because i was or am thinking of doing Pschology but again MONEY!!! And well me being a pschology is now becoming a doubt. I know every career has a risk, challenge, hurdles to cross over. So i guess Methodist College is the final choice. If i go there, as some of you know pastor's children get a 100% scholarship on tuition fees. And there are really some smart students out there, but me well NO!!! I better work hard this year. Aiming for Methodist College. God i really need Your guidance now! I know i can't do it on my own. And i am feeling lost in this big, wide world. Many people have disappoint me.Tell me where to go. Show me the right direction.

MId year exam is next week. Almost every student in my school feels the pressure and stress. Anyway good luck! Happy studying. So long for 3 weeks studying!!!!!