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Spouse From God

Years ago, I asked God to give me a spouse, "You don't own because you didn't ask" God said. Not only I asked for a spouse but also explained what kind of spouse I wanted. I want a nice, tender, forgiving, passionate, honest, peaceful, generous, understanding, pleasant, warm, intelligent, humorous, attentive, compassionate and truthful. I even mentioned the physical characteristics I dreamt about.

As time went by I added the required list of my wanted spouse. One night, in my prayer, God talked to my heart: "My servant, I cannot give you what you want."

I asked, "Why God?" and God said "Because I am God and I am fair. God is the truth and all I do are true and right."

I asked "God, I don't understand why I cannot have what I ask from you?"

God answered, "I will explain. It is not fair and right for Me to fulfill your demand because I cannot give something that is not your ownself. It is not fair to give someone who is full of love to you if sometimes you are still hostile, or to give you someone generous but sometimes you can be cruel, or someone forgiving; however, you still hide revenge, someone sensitive; however, you are very insensitive...."

He then said to me: "It is better for Me to give you someone who I know could grow to have all qualities you are searching rather than to make you waste your time to find someone who already have the qualities you want.

Your spouse would be bone from your bone and flesh from your flesh and you will see yourself in her and both of you will be one. Marriage is like a school. It is a life-long span education. It is where you and your partner make adjustment and aim not merely to please each other,but to be better human beings and to make a solid teamwork. I do not give you a perfect partner, because you are not perfect either. I give you a partner with whom you would grow together."

This is for all: the recently married, the ones who have been married, the soon to get married, and the ones who are still looking.

I feel so lost, so confuse. As if i am losing my mind. Maybe one day i will pass out

I once thought decisions i made were right but it turn out another way

SPM is coming but wait trials first. Have i done my best?

I feel like giving up on myself, but wait there is no turning back

There was once i promise myself to face reality and never run away from it. I promise God that i will run this marathon, trusting in God.

But did i play my role? No i failed terribly.

This is my imperfectness, yeah i guess i know.

What can i say? What can i do?

Only to look to God above.

God i need directions, i need You. I cry everyday but does anyone knows? I feel like telling but seems like no one cares to hear.

I am lost now, at my crossroad, wanting to go on the right direction

But i guess i have to press the pause button for now

Finally i updated, how many people have been waiting?

So well holidays are going to end soon...2 weeks just flew off from my hand.

Now currently in Kl, get to come out of sitiawan!!! Happy ok? Get bored staying in my house with not much to do and 24 hours at home.

I guess driving license will come after SPM. I think i will be the only one who can't drive now..

Activities? Let me see at home almost all the time. With no internet connection. Oh ya the connection is really crappy, can't get through it. So i will have to wait and wait until they repair it.

I am currently so outdated with many things..blogs and stuffs...and i am getting lazier ha ha.

By the way our youth we have a Banana Night. It was fun and exciting. Didn't expect it to be so enjoyable. We had fun walking around at night, taking pictures with strangers, collecting water from the neighbouring area, dressing up and take pictures with a snake,well the snake wasn't poisonous, and more. NO pictures taken that night by me. But well whoever has the pictures, mind burning it in a cd and pass it to me? Will appreciate it...The theme for that night was yellow, everyone had to bring a banana for admission.

Just remember, Fathers Day and Youth Sunday is coming up real soon. And PIANO EXAM!!! less than 3 weeks to go....need to practise hard!!!

Guess that's all...=)

Happy Holidays

Oh yeah exams over, Holidays are on!!!!!!!!!!!! Jumps like a lamb, leaps for joy!!!!

Anyway i don't think i can really enjoy, you know right?

STUDY and STUDY!!! If not i will die in the month of September and December!!!!!!!

All for the updates....zzzzzzzzz

Set for a mix holiday mode

To the person who hates me so badly!!!

You know who you are Anonymous...This is a so called reply to your unexpected comment on my chatbox. And i am telling you, threats don't work on me!

Let me tell you firstly, me as a prefect I am just doing my job. And if you so badly think i like to show off, you are totally wrong!!!What did i do to make you hate me so much? what's the point of showing off? I won't get any benefit. How do you think i have show off? Since you are so daring to say those words right through my face! Yet you want to hide your identity. Say it, tell it. You think those words can just affect me for being who i am? No way!!! READ this carefully!!!! You want to hate me, it's your problem, not mine. Cos in the end you are the one who lose. What's the point of hating me? You can get something from me? Not that i am rich girl or what. And i am telling you this, truthfully speaking i am pissed off now!!! Who won't? Say bad things at me if you want, but i am telling you this NO ONE CAN STOP ME FROM BEING WHO I AM!

Last year i choose to go for the prefect interview, it's not to show off in school how great i am. I don't even have such intention like that. Being a prefect is to take care of the discipline of the school. Well i don't think you even bother to read this right? But please if you don't understand the situation, just stop saying like you know everything. You are not me, so just please stop this. Anyway soon you won't see me at school, so be thankful!If i have offended you in any way, am telling this SORRY!!!

And this is for you, whoever.
Who are you to judge me,
I am not perfect, and i don't claim to be perfect. But if you want to judge me, make sure your own hands are clean!

Don't waste your time on hating me, cos there is nothing you will get. Just an advice, but if you ignore it, then your own pasal la