Well, many things have happen even throughout these days that i didn't update my blog. My mood has been really abnormal, i am happy in the morning but at night i am really down. Something's really wrong with me. Worrying about my studies, future and stuffs. I really need God's strength to pull through all these problems. I know life is like that, but sometimes i have my own weakness too. I tend to give up on going on with life, and being a cry baby and cry to myself in my room. I just can't help it ya know? As what my friend said, girls are more emotional than guys. Actually there is always a big difference between girls and guys. Will not mention it it this blog, later i will offend many people. Well when i came back from school today, i was really down. Main thing was because i really have been spending a lot of money especially on my piano exam fees, school fees, my books. I feel so bad asking my mum money. It's like really a big sum of money and further more my parents are not rich. I am just from an ordinary and moderate family. As what is stated in the Bible God will provide all our needs. I find it true...I am trying to be strong though i am still weak or rather the same old person. I am trying to learn how to face problems in a right and positive way rather than complain about how hard it is to go through a problem. Anyway i need lots of support. Sorry i didn't tell many of you what i went through. But i prefer to keep it to myself. To face reality by myself, that's the way how i can really grow in the Lord. This week i have really been learning a lot of things. Even during my quiet time. God has been teaching me something. I hope i will be better after a while and be back to my crazy mode...
Well for what happen in school, take note it is one of my happy times....
Especially for today itself. Our first period was PJPK, and well the teacher haven't come in so me and my friends decided to play some games, to entertain ourselves. Smart aren't we? Oh ya talking about one of the game. There was a funny thing that happen to me and my friends in form 2. I still remember clearly. We were playing milo ais butterfly...know that game?Well we played that game and guess what in the end we got caught by the teacher. And the punishment was to stand at the corridor outside our class. We somehow felt it funny than we feeling regret, because just imagine we got caught because of this game? ha ha. And anyway today we had no fear but played this game and also we did a very lame thing. Singing london bridge is falling down. And we catch our friend at the end of the song. I really had fun today in school. Exciting too. Well this year may be my last year in high school so appreciate before i leave.
So that's all for now.
Drop some comments ya!
Friday, January 11
Monday, January 7
Once upon a broken heart by The Beu Sisters
Once upon a broken heart
I was walking alone in the dark
Looking for a way to start again
What I wouldn't give for a friend
There was no love in my life
There was no light in my eyes
All the tears that I had cried and cried
Seemed like they'd never end
And I never believed fairytales came true
But now I know that they really do
Now that I found you, now that I'm here with you
Just look at the sunshine, and you
Showed me a world
That I'd never seen
I woke up and fell into this dream
Happily ever after just took time
Once upon this broken heart of mine
Long ago and far away
I could never dream of the day
That your love would come my way and stay
And sweep me away and I
Never believed fairytales came true
But now I know that they really do
Now that I found you, now that I'm here with you
Just look at the sunshine, and you
Showed me a world
That I'd never seen
I woke up and fell into this dream
Happily ever after just took time
Once upon this broken heart of mine
this is the way a fairytale feels
This is the way I know it's real
'Cause this is the way a broken heart heals
And I never believed fairytales came true
But now I know that they really do
Now that I found you, now that I'm here with you
Just look at the sunshine, and you
Showed me a world
That I'd never seen
I woke up and fell into this dream
Happily ever after just took time
Once upon this broken heart of mine
I was walking alone in the dark
Looking for a way to start again
What I wouldn't give for a friend
There was no love in my life
There was no light in my eyes
All the tears that I had cried and cried
Seemed like they'd never end
And I never believed fairytales came true
But now I know that they really do
Now that I found you, now that I'm here with you
Just look at the sunshine, and you
Showed me a world
That I'd never seen
I woke up and fell into this dream
Happily ever after just took time
Once upon this broken heart of mine
Long ago and far away
I could never dream of the day
That your love would come my way and stay
And sweep me away and I
Never believed fairytales came true
But now I know that they really do
Now that I found you, now that I'm here with you
Just look at the sunshine, and you
Showed me a world
That I'd never seen
I woke up and fell into this dream
Happily ever after just took time
Once upon this broken heart of mine
this is the way a fairytale feels
This is the way I know it's real
'Cause this is the way a broken heart heals
And I never believed fairytales came true
But now I know that they really do
Now that I found you, now that I'm here with you
Just look at the sunshine, and you
Showed me a world
That I'd never seen
I woke up and fell into this dream
Happily ever after just took time
Once upon this broken heart of mine
Sunday, January 6
Amazed
You dance over me
While I am unaware
You sing all around
But I never hear the sound
Lord I'm amazed by You
Lord I'm amazed by You
Lord I'm amazed by You
How You love me
How wide
How deep
How great
Is Your love for me
How wide, O how wide Lord
How deep, O how deep Lord
How great, O how great
Is Your love for me
Lord I'm amazed, amazed by You
Lord I'm amazed, amazed by You
Lord I'm amazed, amazed by You
How You love me
While I am unaware
You sing all around
But I never hear the sound
Lord I'm amazed by You
Lord I'm amazed by You
Lord I'm amazed by You
How You love me
How wide
How deep
How great
Is Your love for me
How wide, O how wide Lord
How deep, O how deep Lord
How great, O how great
Is Your love for me
Lord I'm amazed, amazed by You
Lord I'm amazed, amazed by You
Lord I'm amazed, amazed by You
How You love me
School has start! New term! Everything is new!
Well....As my title has already stated SCHOOL HAS REOPEN! Not that i haven't gone through it before. I have gone to school for like 11 years. Time does flies. Can't believe i am now in FORM 5!!!!! My brain is still thinking back when i was a little child in Klang. A small child learning to ride bicycle and has fallen many times. I keep trying and sometimes i gave up hope on riding but somehow things change when i came to Sitiawan. Speaking of when i was young, seriously i really cherish the times when i was young. Comparing now and last time, i prefer my looks last time. Cuter and pretty. Not that i am trying to memperbesarkan sesuatu perkara but it's true if you seen through my pictures. Only my close friends know... Well i learn a lot even when i was young. My dad even took pictures of me when i was doing housework as in mopping the floor and helping my mum in the kitchen. I fine it kinda fun last time but now not really. I have only a limited of time to spend time in the kitchen. With tuitions and stuff, it's really making me tired. Well my mode is still not into a study mode yet, hope i will really change this year. Do my best and make my parents proud!
Speaking of school! hm...school of course on the first 2 days are kinda boring, it happens every year. Teachers are busy collecting school fees and dealing with stuffs. Well so far only 3 teachers have come into my class. The rest have no idea when will they come in. Anyway i as a student should be more understanding. The first day of school was really a mess, especially my prefect duty. Kinda blur actuallly. ha ha. I was like asking around what i should i do for this? Where should i go? But being blur is also quite fun too. ha ha. I know i am WEIRD!!! Speaking of prefect duties, monday i have assembly duty and hall duty. Tuesday is main gate duty. Thursday is canteen duty. Well i will do my best as a prefect and not let the discipline teachers down! Will try! And i also know that being a prefect won't be that easy. Students look to u. If you do a mistake, then it will be talk on everyone's mouth. I don't want to well known in a bad way. And also as a christian, I should be who i should be. Second day was ok. And guess what in just this month i am going to have 2 tests. Moral and History!!!!ah i kinda dislike these 2 subjects. And HISTORY!!!!OH No!!!!Form 4 and form 5 chapters....I seriously need to start studying early!!!!Next is Gerak Gempur, which i guess will be quite soon....EXAMS AGAIN!!!! Anyway got to face it! I can do it!!!! Don't give up!!!!
Well my rashes are fine now!!!! Thank God!!! Fully recover from the hands of the rashes! Rashes are totally a nuisance!!! Itchy and ugly and annoying. Ha ha...
Got to gear up in study mode tomorrow! or rather now!!! Please pray for me ya!!! I can't do it on my own but by God's strength and grace!!! Thanks for ur supports and prayers!!! SPM here i come!!!! Books here i come! I am gonna tackle you bit by bit...BEWARE OF ME!!! BY the way pardon me, i am hypercrazy these few days. Something's wrong with me!!!
Till then
Speaking of school! hm...school of course on the first 2 days are kinda boring, it happens every year. Teachers are busy collecting school fees and dealing with stuffs. Well so far only 3 teachers have come into my class. The rest have no idea when will they come in. Anyway i as a student should be more understanding. The first day of school was really a mess, especially my prefect duty. Kinda blur actuallly. ha ha. I was like asking around what i should i do for this? Where should i go? But being blur is also quite fun too. ha ha. I know i am WEIRD!!! Speaking of prefect duties, monday i have assembly duty and hall duty. Tuesday is main gate duty. Thursday is canteen duty. Well i will do my best as a prefect and not let the discipline teachers down! Will try! And i also know that being a prefect won't be that easy. Students look to u. If you do a mistake, then it will be talk on everyone's mouth. I don't want to well known in a bad way. And also as a christian, I should be who i should be. Second day was ok. And guess what in just this month i am going to have 2 tests. Moral and History!!!!ah i kinda dislike these 2 subjects. And HISTORY!!!!OH No!!!!Form 4 and form 5 chapters....I seriously need to start studying early!!!!Next is Gerak Gempur, which i guess will be quite soon....EXAMS AGAIN!!!! Anyway got to face it! I can do it!!!! Don't give up!!!!
Well my rashes are fine now!!!! Thank God!!! Fully recover from the hands of the rashes! Rashes are totally a nuisance!!! Itchy and ugly and annoying. Ha ha...
Got to gear up in study mode tomorrow! or rather now!!! Please pray for me ya!!! I can't do it on my own but by God's strength and grace!!! Thanks for ur supports and prayers!!! SPM here i come!!!! Books here i come! I am gonna tackle you bit by bit...BEWARE OF ME!!! BY the way pardon me, i am hypercrazy these few days. Something's wrong with me!!!
Till then
Wednesday, January 2
2008 has finally come! Bye 2007!
Well, i guess many people will post their new year resolutions and stuffs on their blog eh? So i am like in the flow too...ha ha!
Hm...actually be prepared when you read this..coz it's gonna be long...
I'm gonna start off with what i learn in 2007! Actually i have really learn a lot throughout the year of 2007! How to be really patience with my parents, my friends. And how to really learn to be sensitive to other people's feelings rather than my own. As in not being self centered. Even the beginning of the year, God has already reveal to me that just by setting my mind into doing something doesn't mean that it can go perfectly well. And life is full of boundaries for us to cross. Whether in our studies, our career, our social live and even in our walk with God. In 2007 i have been really trying hard to do my quiet time, well it has not been going on that smoothly yet but i am sure this year i will really try my best. Even in my studies, i have been facing a lot of competition, especially in my class. Because i am in the so called bad class, so i got a higher chance to score higher. Hey not boasting or anything here but some how this year i get to be the 1st in class. Well, i don't consider myself as a genius or anything, but am happy to achieve something. I also want to thank God for providing me with good friends, especially the ones i got to know this year like Richard,Cindy,Henri and some other people from Petra Gospel Centre which is at my cousin's church. Well, i am hoping that these friendships will last a very long time.
About my new year resolutions:
To start off, first and foremost my walk with God. I have been thinking about how my walk with God is like? Always growing in Him or rapidly decreasing. My youth counsellor has really been helping me even in cell groups. She questioned us if we can draw a graph of how our walk with God is like, how will you draw it? In my mind i was thinking hm...of course la up and and down.But somehow my thoughts strike me deeply. I was thinking to myself, if i am like this 10 years or maybe a year later what will happen to me? So this year is building up the foundation strongly. And maybe this year will be my last year in high school, and if i further my studies in college or university, i may face more temptations than i face now. I am still in my comfort zone, watched over by my parents and church is like my weekend place where i will go for youth meetings and church service. Like many people says it's better to start off when you're young. Build up the good habits. Because if you're old, it's hard to correct all those mistakes and it takes a longer time.
The second thing in mind is that my studies! It's the SPM year! And many people are like Praise, study hard! Score good results! I find it true too. SPM is like to determine my future. Which college/university i will go to? My career! Hm....I seriously got to really discipline myself this year. Everyday have to at least study 3 to 4 hours a day. Revise form 4 things. Pay attention or rather more attention in class! No more online-everyday! Take good care of my health! I don't want to fall sick right before SPM or trials! Don't do last minute work! Well i have been a last minute person all along but it's time to change! And score well in my SPM!
The third thing, well it's to build stronger friendship bonds with my friends. Make more friends. Be a good friend to everyone in times of need or through the the joy and happiness.
Finally the last thing, my priorities this year. My priorities is TO BE AN A OR B STUDENT! ha ha. Truthfully speaking! TO BE A GOOD CHRISTIAN! well meaning even though i face problems or difficulties i will try to react and respond in the right way and how God wants me to. Rather than complaining to my friends,parents and God, why don't i try to be more mature in my thinking.Oh yeah and be a good prefect and whatever responsibilities in my church or school! Well yeah i am a new prefect so i am definetely need a lot of support! I have experiences too but that's like a once upon a time story! So all the best for this new year everyone!
Take note: even though this is like the last day of the holidays, I am still not prepare for school for anything. Please pray for me! Especially in my studies and stuffs. Challenging year it will be 2008!
May God be my strength always! All the best for those taking SPM And STPM! To those who are going overseas or to other states to study, well always remember God is with you always! Trust in Him! Seek Him if you feel all alone, coz God will never leave you nor forsake you!
Till then! Take care
*Praise*
Hm...actually be prepared when you read this..coz it's gonna be long...
I'm gonna start off with what i learn in 2007! Actually i have really learn a lot throughout the year of 2007! How to be really patience with my parents, my friends. And how to really learn to be sensitive to other people's feelings rather than my own. As in not being self centered. Even the beginning of the year, God has already reveal to me that just by setting my mind into doing something doesn't mean that it can go perfectly well. And life is full of boundaries for us to cross. Whether in our studies, our career, our social live and even in our walk with God. In 2007 i have been really trying hard to do my quiet time, well it has not been going on that smoothly yet but i am sure this year i will really try my best. Even in my studies, i have been facing a lot of competition, especially in my class. Because i am in the so called bad class, so i got a higher chance to score higher. Hey not boasting or anything here but some how this year i get to be the 1st in class. Well, i don't consider myself as a genius or anything, but am happy to achieve something. I also want to thank God for providing me with good friends, especially the ones i got to know this year like Richard,Cindy,Henri and some other people from Petra Gospel Centre which is at my cousin's church. Well, i am hoping that these friendships will last a very long time.
About my new year resolutions:
To start off, first and foremost my walk with God. I have been thinking about how my walk with God is like? Always growing in Him or rapidly decreasing. My youth counsellor has really been helping me even in cell groups. She questioned us if we can draw a graph of how our walk with God is like, how will you draw it? In my mind i was thinking hm...of course la up and and down.But somehow my thoughts strike me deeply. I was thinking to myself, if i am like this 10 years or maybe a year later what will happen to me? So this year is building up the foundation strongly. And maybe this year will be my last year in high school, and if i further my studies in college or university, i may face more temptations than i face now. I am still in my comfort zone, watched over by my parents and church is like my weekend place where i will go for youth meetings and church service. Like many people says it's better to start off when you're young. Build up the good habits. Because if you're old, it's hard to correct all those mistakes and it takes a longer time.
The second thing in mind is that my studies! It's the SPM year! And many people are like Praise, study hard! Score good results! I find it true too. SPM is like to determine my future. Which college/university i will go to? My career! Hm....I seriously got to really discipline myself this year. Everyday have to at least study 3 to 4 hours a day. Revise form 4 things. Pay attention or rather more attention in class! No more online-everyday! Take good care of my health! I don't want to fall sick right before SPM or trials! Don't do last minute work! Well i have been a last minute person all along but it's time to change! And score well in my SPM!
The third thing, well it's to build stronger friendship bonds with my friends. Make more friends. Be a good friend to everyone in times of need or through the the joy and happiness.
Finally the last thing, my priorities this year. My priorities is TO BE AN A OR B STUDENT! ha ha. Truthfully speaking! TO BE A GOOD CHRISTIAN! well meaning even though i face problems or difficulties i will try to react and respond in the right way and how God wants me to. Rather than complaining to my friends,parents and God, why don't i try to be more mature in my thinking.Oh yeah and be a good prefect and whatever responsibilities in my church or school! Well yeah i am a new prefect so i am definetely need a lot of support! I have experiences too but that's like a once upon a time story! So all the best for this new year everyone!
Take note: even though this is like the last day of the holidays, I am still not prepare for school for anything. Please pray for me! Especially in my studies and stuffs. Challenging year it will be 2008!
May God be my strength always! All the best for those taking SPM And STPM! To those who are going overseas or to other states to study, well always remember God is with you always! Trust in Him! Seek Him if you feel all alone, coz God will never leave you nor forsake you!
Till then! Take care
*Praise*
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